SMACK!

Ever have something happen that makes you take a real hard look at your life? Well - I'm there!  Do I have things in order if something happens to me? What is it that I am supposed to be doing? Am I doing all of the things that are important to me or am I merely thinking about them....and are those things REALLY the most important things. I do think that it is normal to feel this way in some small degree....but I have hit the proverbial wall! SMACK!

I'm having an internal "WAR"  and I think it's incredibly difficult to share my true self with my family which makes it difficult to talk about it to ANYONE. I do hide alot from my family...how I am feeling...things that have me a little on the edge and in tears....stuff like that....I don't want to burden them in any way. I am the one that takes care of everyone's boo boos...literally and figuratively....I am the glue.

I need to RELAX and sometimes it helps to

Take a scenic drive....

Take a long bubble bath....

Or a biggie...take a vacation somewhere like this...

But the one thing that gives me true relief of any kind...especially in matters of the heart is to pray....

It's the one and only thing I have that saves me from myself...the only thing that opens my heart and the one thing that can lead me home.....

Les grandes pensees viennent du coeur.

Translation - The greatest thoughts come from the heart.


In everything I do I try and listen to my heart...every decision I make in doing so proves to be the right one...my heart is a reflection of my faith....my values...my beliefs.

When I second guess myself....it usually means trouble in some way...regret...grief...anxiety...
I do struggle with this sometimes ....why is it so hard to just listen to that little voice....instead of the loud obnoxious one that drowns it out...

Living from the heart...that's where it's all at....letting love live in our thoughts, in our minds, in our actions and our words.

Here's to my heart...may it give me wings to fly.

I'm Back!

I'm back.......I'm much better and ready to get back to blogging. I've really missed it and I've missed my regular dose of my favorite blogs!

These are just a couple of things I have in the works...I have about 14 different things in bits and pieces...when it comes to making things I get easily distracted. I start something then get another idea and start working on that...and then I get another idea and start working on that...well you get the picture. Sometimes I have to stop what I am working on because I keep second guessing myself....walk away and come back to it. My "stuff" has been packed away and scattered...but I have been digging through the garage and gathering goodies...vintage jewelry, fabrics, trims, etc.

The things I have posted here are not done...but thought I would share them anyway...I will post items as I finish them.....I haven't made anything for sooooooo long...in about a year and a half...that's way too long. Gettin' my groove back...

To all of the beautiful blogs out there...you inspire me....you make me want to create again....thank you from the bottom of my heart....you make me want to be me!

Blog Neglect

I have been neglecting my blog....I haven't felt well the last 2 weeks. I have been to the ER twice...diagnosis..infection in my lungs. So glad it wasn't H1N1. That would be scary!

Still on the mend..better but still having trouble with being short of breath....thank goodness for breathing treatments!

Thank you to those who left comments on my blog...I hope to visit your blogs soon and check up on all the wonderful things that are happening in your lives....

Many blessings to you all!

Soup's On!

It's cold outside....and all I can think about is making soup!

There is nothing like a good pot of soup and

some crusty bread on a chilly day to warm you up!

Here are just a few of my favorite soups...

Chicken Tortilla

French Onion Soup

Roasted Tomato Soup

Farmhouse Chowder

Black Bean Soup

And the old standby....Chicken Noodle!

YUM!

PhotoSource: Martha Stewart.com

Uncensored Thoughts

Have you ever been so moved by something that your emotions swirl around inside you....it swells and resonates through every fiber of your being? I get like that....there are some things that bring out this part of me. Witnessing someones selfless kindness. Music... anything from Opera to Jazz to Blues. A child's joy in the innocence of life. Awe inspiring creativity. A movie that speaks beyond words to the very heart of you...

I notice things...things that some people barely or never notice...little things...the way two people look at each other...what is said and not said....the sound of the wind while I stand with my eyes closed...laughter that is uncensored and full of life....sometimes what seems to be everything and anything.

I also see what is painful...woeful...I do notice...

What do you do with all of that....sometimes I don't know....but most of the time I am grateful for the life I have been given and I hope I use it to make a difference in some way, however small...this is my hope...

Let's Bowl

My youngest son had a practice for Special Olympics Bowling. Our local bowling alley was destroyed by fire so the practice was held in a VERY small town close to where we live. The kind gentleman who owns the bowling alley opened up just for our group of children. The unfortunate thing was that they did not have a ramp for Blake to bowl with. He is in a wheelchair and is not strong enough to handle a bowling ball. Most bowling alleys have these but this bowling alley is small and they are used to adults bowling.

In the end it didn't really matter to us or Blake...he had a great time. He was so thrilled to be with his friends he never even gave any thought to what he wasn't getting to do. He was only concerned with what he could do.....cheer on all of his friends. I love this about him....

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't learn something from him. I have always said that I'm getting alot more from him than he's getting from me. He's selfless, positive, loving and very compassionate. His love knows no boundaries....it's endless and ever flowing.

Living and loving without boundaries...may we all have such peace.

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